As cliche as it sounds, this year has actually gone so fast, we have come to the last day of the first half of the year. Let that sink in.
I think that in life we should always signpost seasons and moments in our life because regardless of your value system or a lack of one, it prompts us to do something....different. What is so 'cool' about the end of the first half of the year is that we begin something new in the second, usually a new academic year. This blog is quite tricky because I am thinking of ways to write in a way that isn't the standard feel-good mantra. But yeah, here we go...
The first half, second half 'signpost' is so important is because despite the year beginning in the first half, you are usually coming to an end of something, and despite the year ending, in the second half, you are beginning something new. Why I think it is important because the way you end that 'end' in the first half of the year is a commentary on, or even reflection of who you are, and so, without sounding too confusing, in the beginning of the year, you are taught something, and grown through an 'end'. Therefore, it is befitting for you to have a 'beginning' in the second half of the year because you are moved to chop and change the you of the first half, thus being on the up and up throughout the year.
Typically, people have a great start to the year, with all the hopes and inspiration new years' celebration gives us, and end the year on a not so high note thus the apocalypse of the 'new resolutioners'. The issue with this is that if your reflection is on a 365 days basis, you have left it too late and there is simply way too much to reflect on. Consequently, you're left in this yearly cycle of trying to make the year your year.
Soooo... what she would do about the second half. Ngl, this bit is going to sound quite feel-goody, apologies in advance.
I think the way we should approach the second half of the year is a competition: first half you v second half you.
What goals did first half you set? Did they achieve it? Was first half you your best self?
Bare in mind though that if an active, an actual change doesn't take place the second half sign post is really just a sign post.
Like a wise person once said, doing the same thing again and again and expecting the same result is madness.
I'm not going to suggest anything because we are all different but I can tell you one of the things I did
Sooooo.. YOUR GIRL BAPTISED IN WATER YESTERDAY.
- I was baptised when I was younger but I din't really remember it so I decided to do it again when I actually had the understanding and I am so glad I did.
Regardless of if you are religious or not, I think you will get something from this:
So before I got baptised one of the Dcns explained to us the symbolism and importance of it. He explained the standard that you can not go to heaven without it, but he also said that being immersed in water symbolises you sacrificing your carnal self for Christ, your former self, your selfish desires, your mistakes, they all die and you come back out as a new and restored person.
"Going under the water was a burial of your old life; coming up out of it was a resurrection, God raising you from the dead as he did Christ"- Colossians 1:12, MSG Version
Then he told us to declare what we wanted to 'dead' as we entered the water and, kinda personal lol, but all I could think of was my thinking. I did not want to carry my thinking into the second half.
1. Being prone to anger (even though some of y'all deserve a boxing), but I don't want to be that person, it hurts me more than it hurts anyone
2. Stressing: people who really know me know I stress about everything and I don't mean boohoo stressing but I mean like worse-case-scenario stressing. When someone asks me to lead praise and worship in church I will stress until the time about the possibility of flopping and will stress after if people liked it, I stress about succeeding, packing enough food, having enough pens when doing a paper, etc.
- So now, I am going with the flow and considering how high-maintenance I am, it will be hard but nevertheless, I will do it
3. Just other carnal desires stuff tbh like buying, eating, watching, doing certain things to edify my short-sighted needs in spite of it not benefiting me in the long run
Side note: this might sound dark but when they pulled me out the water I wanted to burst out laughing, like there was something satisfying about being plunged into the water. LOOOL I woul do it again and again, but ofc it is a serious thing.
What is it that needs to die this half and not follow you into the second?!!!
These things made a big appearance in my 'end' but will not be the mastery of me in my 'beginning'.
Let that be the same with you. gang.
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